ME? Talk about doing what it says on the can, I am literally runnin on empty at the moment, it feels like all the stuffing has been knocked out of me & I can’t think straight.  I wasn’t sure I’d be able to produce the column this week or even if I wanted to.  I thrive on humour & positivity not some sad jumbled ramble that it could turn out to be,   but then life isn’t always  chocolate cheesecake, I’ve always been honest with readers in the past so it felt like a cop out not go ahead this week just because life has served me up another huge dollop of  spotted dick. 

                   Watford Observer:     

I can’t beat ME  I think I’ve accepted that now, as someone who’s slow on the uptake it’s only taken 25yrs  but I still find it incredibly overwhelming and often unbearable having to be shackled to it 24/7.  No matter how hard I struggle to retain some sort of normality or  to escape its limitations, I’m quickly & constantly reminded of who’s in charge.

Sitting here at the laptop trying to bring the words to the front of my head where I can see them clearly enough to form a sentence is like trying to push Play- Doh through a key hole, along with blurred vison and feeling as though I’ve downed a bottle of Disaronno…..if only?    ME feels like being horribly drunk without having the pleasure of the night out.

A night out in my world is dragging the bin down the path in my Pj’s once a week ready for collection the next morning, and a busy day means being able to get up, get washed, dressed, clean teeth, brush hair and have breakfast.  Having any energy left after that is a bonus and cause for excitement as to how much we might have left and what we’re going to do with it. This side of my life is hard to share and lay bare, maybe that’s why I disguise it in humour, I’m embarrassed by illness & what its reduced me too, illness feels like a weakness, but then maybe that’s a generational thing, bit like my expecting  good customer service? .... 

                    Watford Observer:

&  I had the pleasure of dealing with Virgin mobile this week, I love Virgin I really do because they do get things sorted eventually, but after two phone calls and three emails I’m still none the wiser as to what they’ve been doing to my account. However I’d still give them five stars  for “How to confuse a customer”  not helped by the advisor sounding like a robot that’s in the middle of doing 20 lengths at  the swimming baths…”Pardon?....what?...I can’t hear you?... Oh Now I can hear you but I can’t understand what you’re saying?”  In the end I explained I was in ill health and my short fuse was about to blow so I’d leave it. 

“Ok, is there anything else you’d like me to help you with today?”  She asked

I was tempted to say “well actually I need to do a weekly shop, change the bed sheets and do a bit of hoovering, thanks for asking what time will you be round?” but then that would’ve probably just led to more confusion?

But I was still able to laugh this week because you can always rely on a politician to come out with something hilarious, cue a note pushed through the door courtesy of Watford borough Council and the Lib Dem team with an invitation to a local meeting next week where the general manager of INTU (Harlequin) will be outlining the dramatic (catastrophic) changes planned for charter place.

 we’re also being given the opportunity to raise any concerns we might have on the destruction of our town and ask questions…. but not personally… you have to contact the councillors in advance so  “we can have a prepared response or raise it at the forum”   which translated means,  “ so it gives us time to come up with an excuse instead of being put on the spot and made to look like a tw*t”   oh how I laughed, it was an inner chuckle, there wasn’t enough energy for it to surface, but it was laughter nonetheless and I hope that’s one thing ME won’t ever stop me doing.

                                             Til next week, Stay Blessed  

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