This season was over a long time ago. Then it wasn’t. Then it was again, yet somehow wasn’t, until it was again.
Every time a last minute goal makes us think we’ve blown it all over again, everyone else fails to win and a quick glance at the table makes the dream of the play-offs mathematically possible again.
Personally I’m a bit bored of the hope, so now that we've lost to QPR can we officially give up yet? Please!
Over the Easter weekend, Watford had one good result, one disappointing result but two very decent performances.
We were arguably much better than two sides who could yet meet at Wembley for a place in the Premier League.
I would struggle to think of any of the Ipswich eleven who could get in the Watford side, only a handful of QPR's players could fight for places.
Yet they both still have the potential to go up and we don't (really this time, we do not). So with it all over all over again, why don't I feel devastated? I think there's two reasons...
1) Beppe Sannino
It’s taken a while for us all to get over a man like Gianfranco Zola, but it finally feels like we’re all moving on and Beppe really is beginning to seem like our guy.
You can see his philosophy seeping into games. You can enjoy his touchline antics and the speed he is learning English deserves great respect - as does the way he conducts himself before and after games.
Also, has any Watford manager ever waved back at the Rookery with such delight?
During the Ipswich game he waved at the Watford fans with the enthusiasm of a toddler waving at a choo-choo train.
It was an absolute joy to see and I'm very much looking forward to how this man is going to shape a side next year, when he has a proper pre-season to make his mark.
Arguably we could be better off long term, having him do that in the Championship rather than in the unchartered waters of the Premier League.
2) The new midfield.
Almen Abdi, Daniel Tozser, Lewis McGugan, Albert Riera.
Ok, only two of those players are actually Hornets and anything could happen in the summer, but it is hard to remember a midfield as exciting as this.
Add either Daniel Pudil, Ikechi Anya or Davide Faraoni into the mix and it just feels like such a grown up and dangerous midfield.
No wonder both the Ipswich and QPR fans and coaching teams were quick to praise us.
I am confident we could have a great year next year with such a midfield... just as long as we still have quality strikers ahead of them and experienced defenders behind.
Of course, we might not be able to field such a brilliant midfield next year but if we can regularly name a side fairly similar to the one we saw over Easter, I really do think we might do alright in 2014/15.
I certainly would feel more optimistic looking forward being a Watford fan, than a QPR fan right now…